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After I finished ACOSF, I went over a month without reading anything (HUGE book hangover for me). I decided the only way to get past it was to reread ACOSF, gather my thoughts, and pour them out. At the beginning of my reread, it was pretty difficult for me to read Nesta’s POV because of how DIFFERENT her outlook on life became. The sheer contrast between Nesta’s character in the beginning and the end was jarring. All of those unspoken thoughts - believing that she had nowhere to go, she wasn’t worth living, she didn’t deserve love - went unspoken and unvoiced, and it pained me to read them.
Halfway through reading the novel, I decided to note down my random thoughts while reading the book, I think they better represent how chaotic my feelings were while reading it:
If you would like to read my ACOSF review click here
Pg 261: Clotho calling Cassian a Lord and him being so touched by it 🥺: “You are a lord in good deeds. It is not a title born but earned. He bowed his head as he said thickly, “Thank you.” It took him until he reached the section where Clotho had said Nesta would be to shake off the high priestess’s words. What they meant to him.”
Nesta demonstrating the training in the library 🤩
GYWN signed uppppppp in big BOLD letters, QUEEN
Nesta had such an abusive grandmother wtf
Cassian is too pure; Eris’s stupid words hit him so hard 🥺
Nooo - Cassian thinking that he’s a stupid brute is not okay
Nesta softly smiling while packing tea for Emerie 🥺
Cassian referring to his one TINY little fight in the Summer Court that resulted in one TINY little building being destroyed 😂😂
Varian and Amren 🥺😂🥰 “haven’t we talked about this? About... being nice?”
The foreshadowing for them being mates is just SO obvious
Nesta scrying. Death stared back at him. Low key scared the shit out of me
And his first response was to KISS HER 😂
When Cassian gave knives to Nesta for Oorid: “She’d selected a dagger and he grinned. Pointy end goes into your enemy” I-
Nesta and Az allying against Cassian’s utter insanity with a slight smile to each other I JUST CAN’T
Nesta, please don’t get down from that tree, my god 🤦♀️
Who is the female voice telling Nesta to run?? And the kelpie heard it too. Is it the MOTHER?
When she wears the MASKKKK 🤩
“Though she had fought back against Thomas, against the Cauldron, against the King of Hybern, they had all happened to her. She had survived, but she had been helpless and afraid. Not today. Today she would happen to him”
Cassian and Az BOWING before Nesta. Before Death herself.
You wear your heart for all to see, brother.
When Cassian brought Nesta food and seeing her in the bath. And then “he shook his head like a wet dog” Poor Cassian 😂😂😂
“Double-handed grip on the hilt. Don’t choke up too close to the shaft.” I-
Pg402: I’m in tears NESTAAA NEVER AGAINNN WOULD SHE BE WEAK
Helion is goals. He still calls Feyre Cursebreaker ❤️
Nesta made Helion - a HIGH LORD- shift on his feet. Queen
Also, there’s a lot of talk about Narben being discarded by Amarantha.. since it’s a dark blade, I think we’ll see it somewhere in the future 👀 of 450
Omg Nesta confronting Tamlin, even tho I want a redemption arc for him, her anger for Feyre is so sweet. I love Nesta so much
Nesta won over a duke out of SPITE when she was just 14 💀
Okay, Nesta was an ass for telling Feyre, but Amren was so rude to her like wtf, and Rhys?? Man, I’m starting to resent the inner circle
Nesta 😢 when we said good to the prospect of dying 🥺
Nesta thinking if she was worth being counted?? 😭😭😭😭
Actual tears. I’m crying. Her healing is so painful and pure.
She named her sword Ataraxia- meaning inner tranquility
Okay so he showed this vision of a fourth object other than the trove... some sort of bone (prob gonna be significant later)
Emerie calling Mor beautiful!! “Nesta could have sworn pink stole over Emerie’s brown cheeks.” I SEE A SHIP COMING
TEARS Gywn including the three of them in the Valkyrie manuscript. “Our stories are worth telling.”
How did Sarah make me fall in love with a HOUSE? How do you do it?
Nesta’s Dancing. What. An. Icon.
Cassian’s old solstice gift to her 🥺. What a snowball
Nesta hugging Azriel when he gave her his gift 😊 how cute!
But then Cassian thinking she’d break his heart again 🥴🥺
Winter solstice 😭
Nesta telling Cassian that she doesn’t deserve him. I WAS FULL-ON CRYING.
CASSIAN WAKING UP AND TUMBLING OUT OF BED FOR THE SNOWBALL FIGHT I-
Nesta, Gywn, and Emerie having a girls night in ❤️❤️❤️
Az staring at Gywn with admiration and quite encouragement shining from his face 🤩
pg 631 “The world was beautiful, and she was grateful to be in it” 😭😭😭
Eris mentioned something being under Ramiel? 🤔
ANNNDDDDD THEY’RE MATESSSS
Now it begins. My fav part of the book. THE BLOOD RITE 🥴
AHHHHH THE THREE OF THEM BEATING THE CRAP OUT OF THIS HUGE GROUP OF ILLYRIANS AND: “Valkyries,” Emerie said, eyes blazing bright. Nesta grinner through the blood she knew was splattered on her face. “Hell yes.”
Their stories at the base of Ramiel 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 my heart is cracking open.
NESTA DRAWING THAT LINE. HER LAST LINE OF DEFENSE FOR HER FRIENDS 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Cassian being possessed by Briallyn. Saving Nesta. Hugging her. And then saying, “and now I’m going to slit your pretty little throat.” My heart stopped.
She told Feyre that she loved her before she told anyone 🥺
Her hugging Rhys. They’ve come so far 😭
Nesta giving Cassian two choices: a frilly mating ceremony or a stale biscuit 🤣❤️🥺
Cassian’s parting words to Eris
Nesta visiting her father’s grave 😭❤️
This book. I just can’t.